Friday, April 29, 2016

1 Year

One year.

I never realized just how much you life can change in one year. I've never taken the time to pay attention.

One year ago today, I was 9 months and 1 week pregnant. We didn't know if we were having a boy or a girl. We just knew we would love our baby.

My parents came out, we enjoyed dinner at Chick-fil-a and Doug and I went home to pack, knowing the next time we were home, we would be a family of 3.

Nora, she is the joy of my life. 3 months prior to her birth, I lost my brother. The past 15 months have been the worst and best of my life. I feel so lost and empty without my brother but so whole with my Nora. She's my dream come true.

There are things that she does that remind me of my brother. He feels so close in those moments. Then she does something so "Nora" and it hurts me not to have the ability to share with my brother.

I know all siblings are close but Justin was my person. I loved him and looked up to him. Not having him makes me feel empty. Having Nora fills a small part of that void but gosh I miss him.

Happy 1 year Nora. You are the light of my life. I love you to the moon and back. Thank you for letting me be your mommy. You are my world.